| | I never want to eat anything ever again.
I never want to think about the things I'll never be.
I never want to have to see myself in a mirror or be able to look down at a body covered in too much flesh.
I never want to shed another tear due to my own neurotic misery.
I never want to be reminded of how much better it must have been before.
I never want to feel my jaw lock up or my eyebrows furrow.
I never want to have that tension creep throughout my entire being, winding me up inside and out.
I want to be empty, but I never want to disappear.
I never want to wake up alone.
I never want to hear your voice trying to comfort me.
I never want to see your eyes betraying you without your knowledge - under that soft tone, you don't really care.
I never want you to look at me again.
I never want to disappoint you.
I think I understand why people stay single, why they sleep around and don't take relationships seriously. It's probably so much easier. I don't know first hand, but they probably miss out on so much, both good and bad. I don't know which is worse. Is easier better? I don't think I want to know.
|
| | Posted 4/29/2009 6:00 PM - 2 Views - 0 eProps - 0 comments
- recommend
  - recs0
- share
- email
 - sent0
|
